Date: 2024-06-16 11:06 pm (UTC)
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He returns the kiss, then watches as Rowen gets serious, and it makes him a little nervous, but then he sees why. He can feel the hairs raising on the back of his neck. It's not the magic part that gets him, not at all. It's the melding of minds. The fact that his mind must be open.

He trusts Rowen, he really does, but he can already feel the way his heart starts beating hard, and as much as he didn't sweat before, he definitely is now. It's anxiety, PTSD, and as much as he wants to try and push it away, he can't seem to.

Still, he looks apologetic as he shakes his head. "I can't." He closes his eyes, dragging his hand over his face. "It's not you, it's me. I can't. I can't let anyone else in my head."

Date: 2024-06-16 11:17 pm (UTC)
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There's only softness in Rowen's eyes, and Bucky truly does wish he could be okay with this. He doesn't even think he could try. It would just end in disaster, and he doesn't want that.

He tries to even out his breathing, slow his heart, focus on the here and now. Warm hands, warmer eyes looking back at him. Soft lips against his temple, the solid couch under him. "Yeah... that would be... it would be better."

Date: 2024-06-17 12:52 am (UTC)
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Bucky relaxes back into Rowen's arms as he starts talking, watching him as he listens to the stories of Ferelden, and how the other man grew up. It sounds so vivid and lively. It sounds good. He relaxes enough to smile, laugh at the antics Rowen and his sister and his friends got up to. He can picture it all, because Rowen really is such a good storyteller. Steve would've liked him.

"Sounds like a real good place." Bucky leans in to kiss Rowen's temple, then pulls back to look at him again. "How old were you when he vanished?" He can understand that. His father died when he was at a young age as well. Bucky was the man of the house.

Date: 2024-06-17 01:56 am (UTC)
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Bucky doesn't know what Darkspawn are, or what this Blight is, but it sounds a lot like what the Nazis tried to inflict on them, just less-- infected. Just in a different way, maybe. And then there was HYRDA, but Bucky doesn't want to think about them any more than Rowen wnts to think about the Darkspawn. One and the same, maybe.

"I'm sorry. That must've been a lot for you. For all of you." There are things that are the same, and different. All the wars and people trying to take over the world. He wishes he understood more of where Rowen's coming from. He wants to.

Date: 2024-06-17 02:07 am (UTC)
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"Giving it up for love really is something. It all seems so short though, doesn't it." He reaches out, turning back into Rowen's embrace, sliding his hand across his shoulder.

And then he nods. They really have. Life has not been kind, yet here they are. Somehow they're still able to love, and cherish, and hold one another, kissing so sweetly, so passionately. Despite it all they're still able to live this life. Lucky enough to do so when others haven't been able to.

"That's definitely one way to look at it. I think-- I think it's a good thing." One that's been hard for him, but Rowen always gets him to see a different aspect of life and living. "I'm glad to be here with you."

Date: 2024-06-18 12:23 am (UTC)
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He feels a little bit bad for Alpine, but he's sure she'll manage to find her way back eventually. She really is good at giving space, though. Until then, he shifts on the couch whichever way Rowen will have him, settling comfortably over him.

"She'll be just fine," Bucky says against Rowen's lips before kissing him again, parting his lips to let him in deep, returning the kiss in kind. He realizes that he could spend a very long time doing just this. He's never felt this relaxed before- not so much as he can remember, anyway.

"I'd ask you to spend the night, but I don't know if you can sleep like this." Bucky doesn't think he could be able to fall asleep around Rowen either way, but he'd want him to stay.

Date: 2024-06-19 01:56 am (UTC)
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That does make him smile, feeling a bit of relief. He still won't sleep, but he'll be more comfortable on the floor. "I usually sleep on the floor. But really, whatever's more comfortable for you, because I doubt I'll sleep." It's not something he wants to subject Rowen too, especially after their first night together. His nightmares often get violent.

"I'd like you to stay." He tilts his head so he can kiss Rowen fully.
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Bucky doesn't sleep- but he does make sure they end up settled comfortably on the floor. As comfortable as one can get there- but too him, that's where it's at. Rowen didn't seem opposed to it either, so he's not worried. Alpine is perfectly happy as she snuggles in with them too, and Bucky realizes how nice this is. He realizes just how much he wants exactly this, even if he's not sure if he deserves it.

This could work. He could actually be with Rowen and it could work, right? God, he hopes so.

When the sun rises, so does Bucky. He's tired, but it's alright. He thinks it might be nice to laze around and have some breakfast- but he has nothing. Luckily there's a great place just down the block he can pick something up from, so he gets up and gets ready, quiet as a ghost. He really is that stealthy. He sets Rowen's clothes folded on the counter, then glances around, looking for something to write on to leave a note, but he doesn't have any of that either. Jeez, he really has to get a few things for this place, if he's gonna have the other man over more often. Instead he figures he'll be quick, and slips out to go grab them breakfast.

He's back not much later than when Rowen starts getting dressed, quiet as he slips back into the apartment, but he sees Rowen standing there getting dressed and he lets out a breath. "Oh, hey. You're up. Sorry, I slipped out. I went to go grab us food."
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Alpine stretches, yawns, then seems to want to curl back up, but the smell of food is too enticing, so she comes to see what her companions are up to.

Bucky is dressed to the nines again, fully covered up, but doesn't intend to stay that way once he gets settled back inside.

"Good morning."He smiles, moving in close, pressing a soft kiss to Rowen's lips. He's still warm and so very inviting, especially with his shirt hanging open, inviting Bucky to touch. He doesn't just yet though- mostly because his hands are full.

He sets the carrying holder of coffee down on the counter, followed by the bag, pulling out two wrapped items. "Ham, egg and cheese on a roll. A classic Brooklyn staple. Grabbed some hashbrowns too. Figured you'd like those. And coffee, of course."

Oh god I WISHHHH. How I miss the snow.

Date: 2024-06-22 11:41 pm (UTC)
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It makes Bucky laugh a little, delighted by the way Rowen digs right in. He loves how into it all Rowen is. It makes everything more enjoyable. "No apologies necessary. I happen to like it a lot."

He tugs his gloves off, then his jacket, pushes up his sleeves- he no longer has to hide himself around Rowen, and that alone feels damn good. Better than anything has in a long time- other than what they shared last night. Oh, that tops it all. The marks have faded on his super soldier body, but he can still feel Rowen all over his skin.

"They make all kinds of variations now, but the classic coffee is always the best." He digs into his food now too, offering bits to Alpine when she comes over. "She'll be the most spoiled cat in Brooklyn." She deserves it, as far as Bucky's concerned.

As they eat, Bucky leans into Rowen so comfortably, letting out a soft, happy sigh as the other kisses at his jaw. Between bites, he kisses at the corner of Rowen's lips, down to his jaw, happy for this bubble they seem to keep getting drawn into. "You sleep okay?"
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Bucky wouldn't call it shameless. He'd call it being free. It's how he used to be, before the war, before being turned into a monster. It's a part of himself that he lost, but maybe he's finding pieces of it again, here with Rowen.

"You were pretty lazily content. Barely even opened your eyes when we moved." Bucky leans in to kiss his lips when he blushes that little bit, then goes back to eating. He even has more of an appetite now, which is nice. "Didn't bother me in the least. You and Alpine sound almost exactly the same."

Date: 2024-06-30 05:20 am (UTC)
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"My two favorite people, so I'd say it's alright." Even if Alpine isn't a person, she sure can act like it.

It's only kisses that seem to matter now, and he returns every single one of them, because it's all he really wants to do right now. Breakfast barely matters, but Bucky will pull back and let Rowen eat his as he watches him, only picking at his food.

"You can stay as long as you'd like to." Without a question. As long as Rowen wants to stay. "I don't have much to do today. Maybe laundry, checking my messages.... I've got nothing." Unless there's a sudden mission, but he doubts there will be.

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